An Open Letter to Close 2012

Dear 2012:

You have been a bitch to me. At first, you were nice. I pulled my grades up sky high, I became happy in a part-time job, and I became a member of a great group at school where I went from provisional member to becoming an officer. Then, the honeymoon came to an abrupt end, and you showed me your true colors. You didn't want me to celebrate a big milestone in my life, and I was denied the chance to kick a class in its nuts. I did get some insight on it all, and gained a great friend who witnessed all that I went through in your year. She held my hand, helped dry my tears, and was there for me when I needed an empathetic ear at my darkest moment. Through it all, I really found out who were my real friends, and who only came around when their so-called busy schedules allowed them to see me for only fifteen minutes.

2013 promises to become a great year for me, something you wouldn't show me. No, I'm not getting engaged, married, having a baby or getting involved in juvenile behavior. 2013 will allow me to take the year by the cojones and I will celebrate big: releasing an eBook under a pseudonym, graduation, small party, new school, new job that will lead into the career I want, and a weekend trip I am taking solo. 2013 will allow me to overcome a lot, and I won't get denied that chance anymore.

I'm going to forget the bad shit that has happened in 2012 and only remember the good. I'll take what I learned and apply it to 2013.  No more will I sit on the sidelines of life. I will become a participant and live it up to the fullest!

Sincerely,
Sharon Pearson

A Transition From 2012 to 2013

2013 arrives next Tuesday, along with the number of New Year's resolutions people work hard to achieve.  I haven't made a resolution in years, because I knew I would break them once the words left my mouth.  Instead, I decided to make goals for myself throughout 2012 that I want to actually carry out.

1. Not wanting to keep up with the Joneses.  I decided in 2012 that I will not worry about what a person had, nor will I get jealous when someone gets something I desire.  2013 is the year I get to achieve the things I need and want in my life.
2. Letting past situations go definitely.  I spent too much of 2012 wondering about stuff that had happened in the past, and not focusing my attention towards the future.  I won't allow myself to think about what could've been and what if such-and-such happened.  It's the past, and I want my future filled with opportunities and a thriving life.
3. Knowing who my friends really are, and who weren't. Although I wanted my thirtieth birthday to be a special event for me, I had a friend that didn't come through for me, for reasons that seem suspicious to me.  This same friend turned around and invited me to her birthday party.   I turned her down, and I let it go. My male friend invited me to go Christmas shopping. I told him that I refused to come his way for shopping, especially when he refuses to come my way.  He then changed it and said he wanted to go downtown, something he didn't tell me beforehand. I still said no, and I let ti go. 2013 will be the year I stay distant from them, and only hang out with those who actually want to come around me.
4. Becoming more of a money honey, not a broke joke.  I just have to be more vigilant in saving money for the things I need, and to have a rainy day fund.

There are more I'm probably forgetting. I'm trading in  my laptop for a few books to read on this Christmas Eve through New Year's.  I'll be back for my year in review on what I have accomplished, and what I can improve on in my life.  Happy Holidays!

Love,
Sharon