I unplugged myself from all things Internet for a few days to work on myself. I wanted to reevaluate all of my relationships I have with people, and I began to notice a pattern within myself that I didn't like. I said 'yes' to a lot of things I should've said 'no' to on several occasions, like birthday parties, get-together events, and more stuff that left a sour taste in my mouth. I invited people to things and got excuse after excuse after excuse as to why they didn't want to go: it's sounds boring/it's raining/I just want to be lazy/it's too far... the list goes on and on. It took an exercise during a meeting I was at on Wednesday to realize that I haven't said 'no' enough.
I got an invitation to a birthday party from a friend of mine yesterday via Facebook. I wanted to put my new outlook into practice and hit the "Not Going" button. I didn't feel bad about doing so. When she asks, I'm just going to give her an honest answer. I've given her the benefit of the doubt all of the time, and I'm tired of it. I didn't want to say 'yes' to going out to see her when she's said implicitly and explicitly that she has no intentions on traveling within the city on public transit to hang out with me. I'm going to busy myself with schoolwork, honor society work, newspaper, car/apartment hunting, and filling out applications to several universities. She can catch me when I'm done with school, if she feels like not being lazy.
The word 'no' is going to be my new favorite word. I don't want to be a doormat anymore, or be the one that says 'yes' to everything and getting 'nos' from everyone. My time is valuable and none of it can be wasted on petty stuff. I will say 'yes' from time to time, depending on what it is and how far in advance are certain events. For the most part, the girl that always said yes ceased to exist as of yesterday. School starts on Monday and work begins on Tuesday. Time to prepare for classes!
